rezeki

the client is so nice that i told her i won't be having my lunch as i had my big breakfast in the morning and she brought me these!


thank you so much.
appreciate your kindness.
xoxoshikhin

daddy japan

daddy did his training in japan when he was in his twenties.he kinda obsessed with japan and its people.not to forget its cultures.
one fine day (how many years ago), he found this one cute little japanese restaurant in damansara height.
the deco,the manager,the customers are all A-Z japanese.


and he brought his three charming darlings there on last saturday night.
for our big dinner.
i fall in love with the place too!
hands down,sushi king pun kalah.
yummy food,extraordinary friendly waitresses and manager,and 90% of its customers are japanese.
long story short,you hardly can hear 'terima kasih' or any other malay/english words while you're in the premise.
the sliding wooden door is exquisite!
xoxoshikhin

buddy

I smsed her asking whether she’s on diet, or plan to go on a diet or has the intention of going on a diet. Then she replied that it’s been a week she has not had a plate of rice.
Marah la sebab dia tak cakap pun! Urgh. Not fair.
Now, she’s on a diet! A big YEAY for me! From readings and past experiences, it has been proven that to achieve a successful diet target, we need a diet buddy, or buddies!
In my case, a buddy is more than enough! Lucky for me that she is my dancing buddy too!
So, from today onwards, I’d call her my diet and dance buddy!
In short DNDB!
(Just came up with that acronym.LOL)
We had our great times being on a diet back then during our young uniyears, and I believe that we can do this, again.
Because back then, we’ve made it! Results don’t lie! (hips don’t lie)
It’s been quite some time we neglected our passion in dancing and our addiction in going to the gym, not for Line Dance Funk, but for the Wave, Stepper, Steam and Sauna.
Kan?
Daily schedule has taken a toll on us and I sincerely believe that we need to pick up all the pieces and put them back again. So that we can be we. Us can be us.
At least we will be alive again.
We’ve been dead for the past you-know-how-many months.
And you obviously know why!
So much of the thinking and planning time that now I say it’s time to take actions!
I again thank God that I met you since my upper secondary school and we are friends up until now.
We had our fights, misunderstandings and jealousy at times (Yes, I am jealous of u in case you don’t know,hehe).
Well hey, we are girlfriends!
That’s what girlfriends do! :p
Thank you for accepting me into your life! My one and only Mariah. Love you darling!
Let’s do this! And Just Do It! I pray for our success in the near future.
xoxoshikhin

not much

not much else to be said.
or explain.
xoxoshikhin

the look

Fun is it to be up there?
Not even on top of the world
But just up there
That proud feeling
Of holding the title
Faham.
Tapi
Can you just keep that look
To yourself
Or at least don’t give me that look
I am stupid enough in the area
That look doesn’t help at all
You have no idea how stupid I feel at all times
Just
Don’t
Give me
The look. And The Laugh. Or The Giggles.
Annoying. Hurting.
xoxoshikhin

emotionally unstable

They called it as jiwa kacau
I called it as EU
They called it as PMS
I called it as QE (quitting everything)
The time has come again, during the month.
Hope that one day you’d realize
How lucky you are
Having that apart from having others
Or even not having that at all
I pray that one day you’d notice
How grateful you should be
And how thankful.
And today you share with me a bad news
Added up with something extra extra
By saying that you know,
Now I wonder whether you do
Such a secretive one thing back then
Then you taught not to
They change, I change too
But I am still that secretive me
Less secretive me now
Teach me how to be understanding, not.
Brought up in such a family
Complain is not my thing
Certainly not me. Now do you even notice that?
Angry is not the word. Upset is.
Tell me not to compare, now I’m asking you to.
Compare A with B.
I think you forget.
Forgetting things are human.
I am, you are.
Words kill. Actions poison.
Take care. I love you world.
xoxoshikhin

intuition

After reviewing all these years
Past 23 years
80% of it is true
20% of it is nearly true
I believe in my intuition
A risk averse person
Running from, avoiding from.
Able to come up with sets of list
Of the reason why
Of the fact why
Of my own explanation
My belief and my faith.
This time I wish my intuition is true, but I hope it is not.
My wish and my hope. They are not aligned.
It will stay as it is. That is why it is called
Intuition.
xoxoshikhin

now you know

When I left you out alone
Then you asked me where I went
Why took me so long
Etc.
Now you know
How I felt
Being left out
Alone
xoxoshikhin

handbag vs ice-cream

Handbags lover cannot be ice-cream lover at the same time.
Craved for red bean ice-cream when the handbag itself craves for the ice cream.
Result: Handbag comot.
Solution: Buy new one. (should i?)
Feeling: Sad and Likey likey!
xoxoshikhin

stuck like glue

Lovin this song from Sugarland so much!
Feels like dancing and doing cowgirl moves
Im stuck on you!
Stuck like glue!
You know who you are! 
xoxoshikhin

sleepyhead

I feel so sleepy now
After that hot and long walk outside
After having a round-up platter
At Kenny Rodger’s
Seriously
Nothing can help me at the moment
Except for a straight clean floor
So that I could lie down
And sleep. With or without a cushion. Or a pillow.
I am so angry at myself now
So mad
I am mad at me
How come my eyes are sooooo heavy
And I can still type with half-closed eyes
I have to find something to keep me awake
To keep on doing my job
My duties
I don’t think having a cup of Milo would help
But I just walked out of this super cozy room to the pantry
I took a cup of Milo
And having it
That short of walk helped. For awhile.
I wish I could take caffeine. Could drink coffee.
They said it helps.
Just searched for Yuyi oil from my laptop bag
Cause I used to have it in case of emergency
That kinda emergency
So that I can have a smell. And stay sane.
Unfortunately, Yuyi is not here!
Thinking of asking from my client whether they have Minyak Cap Kapak
Seems so unprofessional!
You know what? I feel better now! A lot better!
Writing keeps me alive, at least awake.
Gosh, I have at least 5 more hours to go. F.I.V.E.
I repeat, F.I.V.E!
S.O.S please save me!
xoxoshikhin

nothing as the reward

Waiting and sacrificing.
Contributing and letting go.
Didn’t take a minute
Didn’t take an hour
Not a month, not a year
But years
Hope was there. It was gone at one moment.
Then it was there, again.
Hope is here now.
What would you do, how would you act,
When you got to know
And realize
That there’s no reward
Nothing is a reward
Nothing as THE reward.
xoxoshikhin

born this way

Born this way
Learn to be the other way, learning is not a crime
Doing and practicing are considered as crimes
Trying is considered as half crime
Acceptable half crime
Is there such word or phrase?
Giggle. Acceptable half crime.
Tired and had enough
Enough is enough
Finding ways and searching methods
Searching for the right one and finding the best
If it’s an A, it will always be an A
Trying to innovate an A- or better an A+
Then everything gets clearer
When the fact does not jive
When the fact does not talk
Facts need to talk, need to coordinate
Everytime I try to lie, cheat, hide facts,
I’d be having this feeling.
I was born this way.
xoxoshikhin

straight into the face

Just when you thought they are evil
And when you thought they are mean
Then they tell you
Take one day break
Have one day off
Rest, refresh and recover
When you just can’t face that
Another one day
When you just can’t stay productive
and keep your sanity
Take one day off
And start fresh the very next day
Got these straight from the Red
Gets me thinking
Should I stay or should I leave
xoxoshikhin