They fight for my attention to read with them. Abg nak baca Geography. Kakak nak baca My Big Book of The Animal Kingdom.
Fight for the very place closest to me on the bed.
Abg will never give up his spot next to me making Kakak wanting to sleep ON me.
Abang will magically wake up right after I leave his side.
Will magically wake up to that beep sound of me switching off the aircond in the middle of the night.
Kids and their magics.
Abg will call me just to get an approval on his new invention even with a kertas kromok koyak, pretending it to be that Back to The Future flying car. Kakak will pull my baju so that i would stay in the living room with her just abt that second i stand on my feet to head to the kitchen. Kakak will run from the hall to the kitchen trying to find me just to point at me as her Mama Finger, alongside Finger Family song.
Kakak now in the midst of her threenager phase. At times tak mau org pakaikan baju dia, tak mau buka kasut once dah sampai rumah, and sgt manja with me post 7 months Yunus joined the band. She still loves dancing and just gotta sing her lung out loud right before dozing off while Yunus has alrdy been in his deeeeeep sleep. At times Yunus bangun jugak sbb Kakak sing or scream too loud. Nak bancuh susu sendiri. Nak shake the bottle herself. Love main air sampai basah lokoih tok mama kata. Saja2 cari lah dia kat kitchen sink, will be there washing her alrdy clean hands.
Now Yunus (gonna be 8 months soon) dah rajin be on 2 knees and 2 palms dah ready nak crawl. After penat move/slither everywhere and putting everything in his mouth, he would cry calling for me to pick him up, ready to be put to sleep. Nanti once he is able to move everywhere on his own mcm Abg & Kakak, i will not be needed to carry him from one place to another dah. Will rindu this, too.
Nanti they will wear their shoes themselves. They will walk to school themselves carrying their own school bags. They will buckle up their seatbelt themselves. Pandai mandi, soap, brush teeth themselves. Put on their own clothes, makan sendiri, tak perlu milk before bedtime. No one will be knocking on the bathroom door anymore. No one will be asking for piggy backs no more. No one will scream excitedly in the car looking at big massive ads screen at the mall and the clock tower.
I will miss this.
Semua ni nanti dah tak da Kin. No more waking up in the middle of the nights sebab the kids need the milk. No more walks to the bathroom to wash the poopoo. No more taking turns for the piggy backs from bedroom to the living room. Tak payah lagi prepare kindy/nursery school bags sampai boleh notice something mesti tak cukup lagi sebab bag tak cukup berat, not the same weigh as it supposed to be.
Ya Allah, peliharalah anak-anakku.
Penuhkan hati dada mereka dgn kasih sayang antara satu sama lain, iman yg teguh tak berbolak balik.
Semoga membesar dalam ilmu agama dan saling memerlukan dan melengkapi antara satu sama lain.
Praying that the songs we sing and laughters we have in the car during journeys, will stay forever.
Memang akan rindu.
Mama sayang Abg, Kakak and Adik.
❤
Love,
MAMA
