al-fatihah

al-fatihah to the late raja perempuan besar perlis..

history

hang out at my uncle's house in ttdi while waiting 4 mama in Renaissance.
she got two awrds 4 her council.congrats ma!!
helped me to refresh my mind about my late tok yah.
all the stories have been told again n again so we,the now generation,wouldnt 4get of the old hard days our late generations n wat they had passed through..
history is real.fact.
refreshed my mind n soul on so much matter on things ive forgotten n things that i never knew b4..
history teaches us a lot.
they dont tell 4 no reason.they tell 4 u 2 rmmbr n not 2 4get.
and to learn.
xoxoshikhin

mama's birhtday

27 november.mama's birthday (baim's mama)
tot of making her a surprise by showing up at the house.mama doesnt know im in kl at the mmnt.
but..im facing 'it' again.
xpela.
yesterday went to pyramid,did some shopping with dzafri plus the birthday card.
ate sushi,for sure!!left him at farhan's house(sleepover).
mak yang called me last night,it was her birthday!!double birthday.
woke up this morning (next to ba) sent mama to picc putrajaya.
does anyone knows the meaning of rushing?it kills me to see the time passed by.and it kills me wen i need to transform into an F1 driver,again. (sigh)
had sum ikea currypuff for breakfast.
xoxoshikhin

heritage

i went to tok mama's house yesterday morning.
i pushed her on the wheelchair to the back of the house.she was choosing her baju raya for this coming raya haji.god,she has loadsss of closet.she was searching for baju kurung which was in telur itik colour.
i didnt know what colour was that until yesterday she told me.telur itik is light blue in colour.
i argued with her on the fact. (weird,isnt it?)
then she rested on the bed.started telling me all the history,experiences and my family background.
some of the details are

1. how pressured it was during the curfew,darurat (my late uncle was in the hospital)
2. my great great grandmother was married to 'sumone' in thailand
3. how sultan abdul hamid got his name (my great grandfather was a translator)
4. my great aunty was married to 'sumone' in perlis

unbelievable.xoxoshikhin

loooong journey

journey to kl by bus from alor star usually takes 5 hours,the most.
im still in the bus,writing this to you.

1. the bus should start the journey at 10.30am instead of 10.45am
2. the bus should fill the gas up before any journey instead of during the journey
3. the bus driver sticks to the road rule where he doesnt go more than 100km/h
(pak cik,rules are made to be broken)
4. an accident occured on the highway caused massive traffic jam (3 ambulances were there,divider was smashed,involved a kancil which was seen 80% damaged)
5. it is raining throughout the journey
6. police road block caused another massive traffic jam

the funny part was when we stopped at bukit gantang for lunch and my brother n i were the last one to hop on the bus.other passengers seemed furious.haha
xoxoshikhin

future

yesterday,i was so0 in need of papers n pencil.
i found my lil bro school's note book and a stick pencil.
enuf.
i started to jot down my future plans of my academic life and my career world.
mama's always tell me that once u haf that bulb light up on top of ur head,jot the ideas down.
so that u won't forget n be uncreative u again.
its ok if u plan but it didnt work at the end of the day.
at least u've planned rather than u didnt plan at all and regretting about it.
wonder why i haf so much ideas popped out frm my head this few days.
maybe becoz i spend my holiday chillaxly n having my own sweet time,
wondering and thinking.
no harm in planning,aite?
xoxoshikhin

idea!

its been quite sumtime i havent update my blog.
sorry guys..i haf such a strong reason 4 not doing it.
i was busy eating the whole wide world,snacking evrything into my tummy.
it feels great!!
didnt do that 4 quite sumtime alrdy.
tot i'l be continuing my 'plan' starting 2day.
sumthing gotta start sumwer,kan?
woke up this morn,having lots of ideas in my mind.creative me was reborn!! :)
checked out sum web pages on thing i love the most wic is _ _ _ _ _ _ _!!
generated sum ideas of my own and write them down.
eager and excited!!
xoxoshikhin

wrong

something must be wrong sumwer.
my digestive system seems to work well,i mean very very over well.
(u noe wat i mean)
and thats not good!!!
i have lost counting of the number i went into the toilet.
woke up with a very full tummy,then a very empty tummy after %$^%# :)
my tummy hurts so much till i feel cramp in my rib cage bones..how bad can that be?
very bad!!!
so,i ate a bowl of coco crunch and feel better now.
thanks to my deary very caring and loving lil bro,he made me my second breakfast wic was egg+cheese+chilli sandwich.
he cooks better than i do u noe.thanks fi!! :) love u!!muah3!
xoxoshikhin

miracle

yesterday was such a very fine day. :)
me and dzafri spent like half of the day hanging out in town,going here n there with ba.
sounds miracle,i know.
well..things changed sometimes..
tho actually it was nothing compared to going to any favourite vacation spots,or dine in a very luxurious restaurant like beso,
going to the workshop away from the town,having roti canai and capati with teh tarik at sumwhere ive never been to,lepak in the car listening to the music,
getting some cash$$$ and having nasi ayam for lunch were superb!!
attended my aerobic class here in alor star for the second time.
alia was with us at the park.
everything went ok to better,so i am so grateful to God..
i wanna thank sumone,too!!thanks to u (u noe who u are)
xoxoshikhin

tears

i didnt expect things will be to the extend of this..
pity kak syaza..pity abang..pity mama..pity ba..pity myself..pity everyone..
i am still in da mood of shocked after wat happened last night...never experience such situation before..
how i hope things will get better in the future,soon i hope.
mama woke me up this morning asking me to move the car.
woke up feeling uncomfortable walking n seeing things with my non-stop teary eyes and swollen face..
i had a huge cry last nyte..
that explains my non-stop teary eyes n swollen face..
thank you to sumone who was there for me to listen,to calm,to consult,to make me understand,n thank you for being so thoughtful n understanding..
sorry to him i didnt attend to his need last nyte..(just read ur blog)
xoxoshikhin

done 5th semester

i just cannot explain how it feels to finish all the seven papers.
i am so tired...
and so happy!! :)
now i just can spend my time not studying!!!double j!!
i need to settle some matters before i get back to my hometown..
meetings..(mama n babah)..college clearance..etc
there you go,ive done my 5th semester of my degree already.
insyaallah i do my 6th next year.
pray for my success people.
xoxoshikhin

secret revealed

ppl hates living in secrets..
ppl hates living with secrets..
ppl hates living on secrets..
ppl dies with secrets..
i dont want to be one!
i just found out about sumthing that is so so sooooo big in my life..(which obviously does not related to outsider,so jangan perasan okay)
it is not that happy to know..and not that ok not to know..
so..well,i know it now..n i feel erm..relieved a little bit..
come clean people,come clean..
stop pretending.it hurts,i know! :)
human,u just cant pretend until the end of ur life,trust me.
xoxoshikhin

ame

'ame' in japanese means rain..
it was raining outside when it was time 4 me 2 go out 4 a jog..
well,i went for two rounds n decided to hit to da gym.
so..basically..plan changed 4 2day..i didnt jog,instead i cycled.
:)
gotta go n bathe asap!
goin 2 b extremely bz 2nyte..benkyo o shimasu>means study
xoxoshikhin

african queen

i watched 'phat girlz' for quite a number of times already.
i love the part where it tells me in africa,they dont call fat girls as fat girls.
they are called 'thick madame'.
which sounds so proper,so sexy and so french!!
do u noe that in africa,guys will go for these thick madame compared to the skiny ones.
the thicker the girls are,the better.
traditionally,they believe that thick madame are rich,skinny ones are poor.
thats y they go for the thick ones.
so gurls out there....think,b4 u go 4 a diet!!
live ur life n be happy people!!
xoxoshikhin

something new

i am so proud of myself today.
i went for a jog!!(unbelievable,but i made it!!)
alone,of course.
i was feeling so lame n lazy n slow during the day.
till i made up my mind to go for some exercise which is jogging,
so that i feel better,at least.
been eating and having none active movement in the house,
putting up some kilos already,so...
a girl gotta do what a girl gotta do!!
hoping to stick with the plan,starting today.
cross my fingers.
xoxoshikhin

busy body

my apartment consists of those nurses working in sunway medical centre,too.
they are still so young,18 above.
while jogging just now,i saw them gathering at the lobby,wearing fancy clothes.
the indians mostly wear shocking colour sarees
and the malays n chinese wear dresses.
must be sumthing going on,huh?
dinner or sum sort of party!!
busy body me..haha
xoxoshikhin

flu

pity my dad that he's having his flu now.
been having it for quite some days..
kesian...
been working so hard that he has no time to take care of himself..
parents...
they sacrifice a lot..
and u children,what do u do in order to repay them at least 0.001% of what they did for you?
go study and be sumone useful to yourslef,ur fam,ur friends,n ur society..
so...stop blogging n go!
:)
(im still here,typing,hehe)
xoxoshikhin

family first

dear people living on earth,
watever happens to you,do priotize your family.
u wont regret.
family first,people.
family first.
who r u without them supporting u?
will u b u like u r today?
nope.
so,people,put your family first,ok?
xoxoshikhin

understand

how can other people understand u better than u understand urself???
that happens to me.
me!
i am so complicated that i myself dont understand me.
he does. :)
lucky me i guess.
found da one!double j!!!
bukan u sorang je fhm i,ur fam pun!!
happy,happy,happy!!
xoxoshikhin

u amazed me girl!

as time passed by,i have changed a little,or maybe a lot..
depends on how ppl see me.
but gurl,i just want u 2 noe that u amazed me!!
haiya...
colourful world we live on.
happy being me!!
xoxoshikhin

cancelled plan

i planned to haf my dinner in puchong.
unexpected thing happened.
tired of planning alrdy.
aduhai...
why la..
g.u.i.l.t.y
xoxoshikhin

frust

arsenal vs man u,2-1.
frustrated.
dissapointed.
rasa mcm x percaya.
rafael was not bad at all!
:)
xoxoshikhin

weird

i start having this weird feeling wen evrytime i switch on the tv,
ti-whatever you like will be there.
odd.
just watched spanking new video clips on ti feat rihanna,live your life.
currently listening to qwote feat shaggy-i dont wanna fight
n womanizer by britney spears(she's back 4 good!!)
gonna miss mama cause she's going back 2 kedah late eve today.
:(
xoxoshikhin

chestnut

i wanted to start studying yesterday morning and wen i swicthed on the tv,
there it was,chestnut.
i never knew the existance of the movie,i started reading the info.
well,not so much about the movie,but i cried watching it.
not sure whether those two little girls are so good in acting or im such an animal lover.
the movie is about two newly adopted little girls and a dog.
funny that i cried.
n because of i started my day by watching the tv,i didnt study until it was night.
slept at 1 over and woke up early 2 send mama 2 putrajaya.
im studying now actually.just stop by 2 write u sumting.
wish me luck 4 dis eve paper.marketing n human resource practices.
xoxoshikhin

c.h.a.n.g.e.s

things are changing now..
n they're changing for good reasons..
adapting to it.
feeling glad :)
gotta go.study.
economics.
xoxoshikhin

well fed

snce da mmnt i opened my eyes this morning,up until now,
all i do is munching and eating.
eating big.
buns,bread,and coco crunch for breakfast...
three plates of rice n lots of meat for lunch...
three plates of rice n lots of meat,lots of fish,curry for dinner..
3+3=6.wow.
im feeling slow now..
i just dont know how 'it' works... :(
need to come out with some plans.fast.
plans just wont work when mama starts to feed us,the children.
rezeki jgn ditolak.. :)
thank u ma..
no more food for tonight.(how i hope)
xoxoshikhin

materials

materials are just materials..
some having it,some not having it..
some having it a lot,some having it some,some having it a little,some just dont have it..
one cannot have it all..
one just wont be satisfied..
one just wont feel enough..
nothing wrong with not having it,nothing wrong with having it,
nothing wrong with having it a lot,nothing wrong with not having it at all..
so what if one have it and u dont?
so what if u have it and others dont?
so what??
be thankful.
that what matters the most..
xoxoshikhin

world's best mum

in case u dont noe,my mama loves burger king so much!
so,had our dinner at burger king la.
6 hours walking (very slow) hurts my legs.
im a fast walker anyway.
people just dont like walking with me.
mama,she's a meticulous person.
very detail.
none,i repeat,none of any crystals or plates or teasets placed on shop racks she would ever missed.
just bought a box of teaset as a present to her cousin.
we had such a great time!(chit chatting)
mama's asleep already(kesian..penat kot).happy just seeing her happy. :)
bought some rendang tok.who's going 2 finish it????i dont care.need to sleep now.gotta wake up early 2mrw(study)
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im bloated
xoxoshikhin

mama's in the house!!

mama's in kl 4 6 days!!!
happy!!!
homemade cook,here i come.... :)
gulai tulang..daging kicap..hehe
nvr eve let me miss her much2,coz if i do,i'll b insane!!
goin window shopping dis eve.
spending some quality time together..
makan sama2..
double j!!
gotta study!!
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currently loving colbie caillat-kiss the girl
xoxoshikhin

currently listening to

TI-whatever u like
shontelle-tshirt
rihanna-live your life
various artists-just stand up
katy perry-hot n cold
36 mafia-lolly lolly (pop that body)
colby o donis-what u got
akon-dangerous
lady gaga-just dance
miley cyrus-7 things
pcd-when i grow up
xoxoshikhin

exam on a sunday

why on earth i haf an exam on a lovely sunday??
exam starts at 2.15pm
guess ive studied enuf
dh penat..
gonna do my best,extra best dis time. :)
ba texted me wishing me good luck!
happy...
pray 4 my success u all!
xoxoshikhin

fight

why do we have to fight?
hate fighting
it hurts
makes u sick
makes u haf a headache
makes u feel like running away
u'll become an ogre,shrek,big,huge,green thingy
worst,the hulk
the tense..the pressure..the tears..
uurrghhh,hate it,hate it,hate it!!
im sorry...