mama's 52nd bday!!

31.12.2008
reason y i overslept?
last night was my mama's surprise bday party.
she's 52 today!!(30 december 2008) happy bday mama!love u so much.
details:mama is the only person ive ever known on this whole wide earth who loves to talk so much.i mean,soo000 much!!
we didnt show off the surprise at exact 12am.(duh..of course..)
sebab,she didnt stop talking to kak syaza's mama until we felt that we were forced to just cut off the loooo00ng conversation between them and came out with the cheese cake.
can u imagine,the aunt usually sleeps at 10pm,and last night she only have the chance to close her eyes at nearly 2am.
kesian mama kak syaza.
my mum,she enjoys talking so much!!mama2...
happy bday to u!!love u much2!!
xoxoshikhin

1st day:new sem

what a great start off of the day.i woke up at 7.34am!!
my class starts at 8.30am.i was so0 late.how late?30mins late.
perfect.class account pulak tu.
so lizzie mcguire.
glad the lecturer is so best that i thank my fate.
kene perli dlm class baik punye...adoi..
hope to get up early after this.no more overslept for me.
love pn junaidah so much!!(im in uitm lab anyway=wrong usage of internet)
xoxoshikhin

nothing to be compared

glad that i met kak long,kak ngah and abang.
it was so fun to be around them!got a bangle from kak long.thanks!love it so0 much!
kak long is a very responsible sister.she taught me a lot without 'teaching' me.stories of her make me realized that im facing nothing compared to what she's facing since forever!
i repeat,NOTHING!
and she's only 14!!
i am so proud of her.the word 'selfish' could never be used to describe herself.she's so0 much into other people.loves buying things for others....put others above her...
never think of herself...cares so much of the family..what a child!supergirl!
she loves math!and she's taller than me. (can u believe that??)
kak ngah,she wants to be a lawyer!go kak ngah!and abang,he is so cute!!!!
hope to see you guys anytime soon!
xoxoshikhin

losing it

im losing it..
whatever the 'it' means,im certainly losing it!
xoxoshikhin

internal

last night was my first night sleeping in the new house.plus minus 500m from the old apmnt.
kinda tired unpacking stuffs of me n my sis.
so much to do,so little time.
and seems like the flu is going to stick with me for some more time.flu,go away!!!
and yes,im having sum sort of inner problem with myself.
its getting more serious day to day..
im hating the feeling.yet,i dont know what else will work for me.
he's always there for me.helping me go through my days,bad days.thank u so much.
my internal is just so000 degil.sorry for that..
what's happening to me???
xoxoshikhin

flash back

after i got my very teruk result,i guess its time to muhasabah diri,flashback things that i did before..and change my attitude towards doing and seeing things.
to all those people ive done wrong,im sorry..from the bottom of my heart..
this time,it really open my eyes,wide..open my mind,wider..
guess i need to stick to the promise i made to mama before i stepped my feet into uitm.
i promised her that i wouldnt skip any classes..
well,i did for sumtimes..sorry ma..
it was raining sooo heavily and one of the days,i thought the class had been cancelled,thats y i didnt attend the class..sorry again..
i am very proud of myself this semester on one thing,i sit in the 1st row in my classes.glad i did that.and realised,that one is not enuf for me to do well in my exams.
maybe i didnt prepare myself enough.didnt study enuf.
i accept my result in a positive way.
things in life that teach and change us.make us more mature.
wish all the best to all my uitm friends and myself.we'll do better this time,okay?
xoxoshikhin

doctors

just got back from penang general hospital.
god,i think this is my 1st time seeing the reality of public hospital.
there were so many people with so many sicknesses.
some were just not patient enuf to wait for their queue,some were waiting with families,some were so alone..
chinese old men..indian kids..malay women..
the nurses were so busy going here n there..there is no chance for them to even have a sit for a minute..
surely either nurse or a doctor,its not an easy job.
dato dr omar ismail advised not to study medic if ure under ur parents' HUGE influence.be a doctor if u urself want to be one.
its true when hun says,doctors put their lives behind just to save other people's lives.
to all the doctors and becoming doctors out there,u all are awesome!!!
dr omar told us,in 10 letters hospital received,9 out of them are complain letters and only 1 is an appreciation letter.can u imagine that???
complains are norm,appreciation is odd.malaysian.
doctors have to live with that.they have no choice.and they are ok with it.with people not appreciating what doctors have done to them.
make me realize something big...betul x?
xoxoshikhin

demam pulak

its been sumdays im not feeling well..
dugaan..
but!!
i came out with summore ideas about my future!!
cant wait to share the ideas with him.
everything starts with a dream..
n dreams do come true..
dare to dream!
xoxoshikhin

bahaya

to girls out there,tho u plan to go to some public places that u might think its safe for u to go alone,dont.
never.
jangan.
yesterday i went out with dzafri n u know all this while i loved to go out alone,now,not anymore.
i ran into my 3-years-older-than-me aunty when we were searching for dzafri's school shoes.
she told us that she went to the basement to park when she realised that sumone was following her.
she made a brilliant act when she decided to go up to the rooftop n park there.
seriously,i never thought of being followed in that way.
i mean,ur in the car kan?
i'll think twice to go out alone after this.fuh.
xoxoshikhin

decades ago..

its been decades ago since i witnessed my dad got angry..
you two,if things dont work out,just..erm..accept it.
dnt come near to not-so-healthy people and scream about your problems.
its a big NO-NO.
ingat tu.
thank god he's fine..
mcm2.
xoxoshikhin

dependant

its a nice feeling when people tell u that u r dependable.
but its not as nice when the weather is so0 hot outside,and u r lying around in that white comfy sofa,yming..
and all of the sudden u got a phone call telling u that u r needed.wanted.
u haf to jump up n change ur pants..
put ur hat on..
and..go food shopping.
is it that hard to remember that cookies belong to which rack?
welcoming shikah home..
xoxoshikhin

calm down

what did i do to calm myself down after knowing im being cheated again n again dpn muke i pulak tu..
i went shopping la!!!!
bought four tops n one bottom.
yes,i feel better...
going 4 summore today.yeay!
bye people.
xoxoshikhin

cheated

how on earth people keeps cheating on me when i know im being cheated??
i myself pun xbuat ape2..
cool je..
girl,can u just come clean??
susah sgt ke?
guy,im not stupid.
face me,face the situation.ure the one who put urself in it,so...padan muke.
ade ke patut sembunyi dlm kete????
how childish is childish?u tell me.
hm..
(im certainly not talking about my great bf tau)
xoxoshikhin

reason

there r reasons y im here,hanging around,not working.
things happened 4 a reason.

haiyoo..

stop smoking

my dad has totally put a stop in smoking.
wow!!!!
after all these years....
:)

responsibilities

they are huge,big,massive.
sumtimes u just cannot do sumthing just because u haf other responsibilities or commitment.
which u just cannot run.
deal with it.
xoxoshikhin

helping

went to the colour photocopy spot to xerox sum of my dad important doc.
sent it up to lvl 12 pknk wer i met my dad'd former employee n his friend.
what a coincident.
sumone appraise me of something.(aaww..)
:)
after took sum laundry at the dobi,bought sum kuih 4 my dad.
bang!met my twins cousins n my aunt.
straight back home..
xoxoshikhin

malaysians

while i was waiting for my turn,i chatted with a mak cik next to me.she thought i am a chinese b4 she started the conversation.(how odd)
she was a teacher in bahiyah and retired at the age of 49.she is a single mother,her husband passed away caused by cancer.
she was so nice that she wanted to help me pay for the bill rather than waiting for my turn.anyway,i only got a bill to pay rather than billsss.so,xpe la kn?
her number was 1343.
thank u mak cik..
we malaysians are so cool!!
another mak cik sat next to me while i waited for the other mak cik to pay my bill.
turned to a be a teacher as well.
what a moment.two teachers n a pak cik lebai in a post office.
xoxoshikhin

pak cik lebai

i went to the post office just now to pay my astro bill.
my dad just cannot live without astro.
i took a number wic was not a lucky number i supposed,1391.and at the time it was 1318.
i need to wait fo sooooo many people b4 it is my turn.
so i sat down.
sat down next to a mak cik,on my left.on my right was a pak cik wearing white lebai.
he couldnt stop staring at me,which 4 sure it was so obvious.i didnt wear sumting too much or wat.
i wonder y.
i saw him kept his eyes on me thru the mirror in front of us.does he has any idea of the word 'reflection'??
xoxoshikhin

4am

its 4.12am in the morn.
n im still awake.
watching tv,surfing the internet,thinking.
all at the same time.
all im thinking about today is "maintainance".
such a deeeeep meaning.
its hard.but doable.
xoxoshikhin

choice

sometimes we just dont have a choice.
either we take it or we take it.
what do we do then?
try to accept and adopt to it.
it cannot be that bad,can it?
nah..
xoxoshikhin

some space

im tired.i need sum space now.

dear bashirah

i know it is you!!
:)
well..about 'that' thing,one thing i want u to hold close to ur heart.
if to be 'that' is what u want,be discipline.
nothing else stops u but discipline.
u may have done it greatly in one day,two days.
then came the 3rd day where family gathering was there,sibling's birthday party was there.
kan?
we just cannot resist.
ni dah raya pulak.
so...tu la..discipline is all what it takes.
i myself have been there,done that.
still failing,but keep on trying.u want it,go get it when u know u can.
keep on trying tho u failed 4 562 times.maybe u'll succeed the 563 times.mana tau kan?
goodluck shi!
xoxoshikhin

selamat hari raya

selamat hari raya aidiladha i wish 2 all..
maaf zahir batin..
went to mak tok's house just now..raya awal2..
yesterday was such an extreme day..stressed out.
open options are not good sumtimes.
sigh.
things can be worked out most of the time.
so..decision has been decided.
off to kl sumwen later.
hope everything will turn out to be okay..
xoxoshikhin

quite some time

sorry 4 not updating my blog 4 quite sumtime.
been busy here in alor star.
something emergency came up.
2nd december 2008,2am.
what a shock.
for those who smsed me wic i didnt reply,just to let u all know that i havent been topuping 4 few weeks already.sorry k..
catch yall later.take good care of ur health.eat right and do exercise.
xoxoshikhin