How To Be Okay With Things That I know I Will Never Be Okay With

There are things that I will never be okay with.
Due to my introvert self.

Help.

Be Present. They Say.

The photographer snapped me, being me.
Me being present. For the kids.
Didnt care how I'd look like.

Didnt care what others would say.

As long as my kids know I was there. For them.

Love you kids.

-Mama-

Nurse Home Visit

Thank you to my nurse yang sabar dalam dapatkan perfect schedule utk nurse home visit.

Due to my super busy schedule, so we decided the home visit will be during weekdays. I gotta inform my Boss utk balik rumah for awhile jumpa nurse.

During home visit, nurse check the perut, and my BP. We talked, story morry like there's no tomorrow.

True they say, pengalaman is the best teacher. Kampung2 teaches you humanity. My nurse rocks!

And anak, truly anugerah Allah. tak semua ada rezeki pregnant and ada anak, Alhamdulillah thank you Allah.

Fatimah's Graduation and Yunus' Year End Concert 2024

The event was on 14 Dec 2024. We checked in Bertam Resort Hotel on 13 Dec 2024.
Fatimah is done with her kindy years...pejam celik pejam celik.
She stood the first row for the opening surah As-Syams and her choral speaking.
Proud.
She is the best! 

Yunus was having fun with his "Hello Sun, hello moon, hello star".

May you shine as you always do, Kakak.
Mama doa your primary years pun baik2 saja.

We believe in you, only the best from you Kakak.
I'll be there with you along the way. Congrats Syg Mama!
Love you Kakak!

2024 IOM Entrepreneur Day

  

 

"I dont want that cap. I need something purple or pink or Frozen or something. That looks girls." So she said. Sir Zul reminded that for Entrepreneur Day, Fatimah has to wear a cap. She has one, but she doesnt like how it doesnt look girl-ish enough? Bought a glittery purple Frozen cap for her last night, she is beyond happy. Dari sampai school, until ke petang asking everyone to have a look at her cap!

Today is her last Entrepreneur Day at kindy, she is 6 this year. Fatimah had to bring egg sandwiches (her stall is the pastries stall) and Yunus had to bring choc milk (everything-choc stall). Baim and I attended the event. Sir Zul kata dari pagi stall tu tinggai kat Fatimah saja, pandai dah dia jaga duit, jual beli, bagi balance duit etc. Alhamdulillah my smart girl Fatimah. Happy that you are happy. Proud of you, always.

Love,

Mama

Yusuf and His Idol

Suka sgt CR7 tu.
The hair. The body. The style. The football tricks.
That phase.
:)

Only Love Can Hurt Like This

My current song on repeat. :)

I tell myself you don't mean a thing,

But what we got cannot hold on me?

But when you're not there I just crumble
I tell myself that I don't care that much,
But I feel like I'm dying till I feel your touch
Only love, only love can hurt like this,
Only love can hurt like this
Must have been a deadly kiss
Only love can hurt like this,
Say I wouldn't care if you walked away,
But everytime you're there I'm begging you to stay,
When you come close I just tremble


And everytime, everytime you go,
It's like a knife that cuts right through my soul,
Only love, only love can hurt like this
Only love can hurt like this,
Must have been a deadly kiss,
Only love can hurt like this,
Only love can hurt like this,
Your kisses burning to my skin,
Only love can hurt like this
But it's the sweetest pain,
Burning hot through my veins,
Love is torture makes me more sure,
Only love can hurt like this,
Only love can hurt like this,
Only love can hurt like this,
Must have been the deadly kiss,
Only love can hurt like this,
Only love can hurt like this,
Your kisses burning to my skin,
Only love can hurt like this,
Only love can hurt like this,
Save me, Save me,
Only love, Only love,
Course only love can hurt like this
And it must have been the deadly kiss

Perempuan. Memang Macam Ni.

 

Not Good. Semoga Gets Better.

28 August - the hospital emergency

10 Sept - dragged the kids balik rumah. the old act happened again.

Off Pizza Hut yang salah flavour. To a broken ruler and broken heart.

Semoga esok lebih baik.
Semoga Allah pelihara semua.
Allah ada.
Allah tahu.

InshaAllah.

Merdeka 2024

 

This is his merdeka.

Their Classes (for my memory)

Yusuf - Patience Class (with Mdm Mas)

Fatimah - Trust Class (with Mdm Ila/Sir Zul)

Yunus - Polite Class (with Ms Dilla)

#KindyYears

Jumpa Orang Yang Baik Baik

 

Yesterday, while performing the audit at Hospital Bukit Mertajam, bumped into this one Indian uncle, Cikgu Puvan. Nearly 82, he drove himself to the hospital for his regular checkup, walked well quite far from where he parked. Has a very very positive attitide towards life. Reminded me of my late grandad, Tok Ba. Tall, thin, white hair, wise man.

He was holding this Danielle Steel Vanished book amongst other medical documents. Thats what made me and Suguna stopped him. And he prayed for our blessing right away. We asked whether he was rushing somewhere and he said no.

So we stopped at "Balai Pelawat" and have a 20-30min conversation with the wise man. Born in Kedah, raised in Bukit Mertajam, studied in England, worked in Kelantan and now living in Taman Bukit, Bukit Mertajam. Very nice chap, has a 70yo wife and 2 kids. One is pursuing her study in UKM, and another is a Motorola Engineer.

An Ustaz in Kelantan advised him once that "wherever you go, leave 3 good things for others to enjoy" and he reminded us to always be good. Just do good. Send your kids to Chinese school as another language is another advantage. Teach kids to read, only by reading you will fly. Whatever religion you believe in, all teaches the us just to be good, be kind. I asked him on what is his view on life, he answered that life is great. Yes with all the troubles and tough times, but life is great. Go through all, and it all will turn out just great.

We walked him to his car and thats that. We offered a wheel chair and he said no, he has to walk. He has to be healthy, he has to do this by himself. Before, he walked 20km a day, and now around 5km as the Doctor advised him that 20km is too much for his age and his leg.

Well it was a very-very good conversation/walk and I will remember this for a longgg longgg time.
I pray for your health and happiness Cikgu!

Love,

Kin.

Random Things In The House

Ada hari, tak da hujan tak da ribut, keluarlah Puteri Santubong tu kat rumah.

Whatever makes you happy sygku Fatimah.

Mama layan ja my only girl ni. Rindu dia kat costume Year End Concert 2023.

Love,

Mama

With Knowledge

Only with knowledge, you gonna be good, do good, make good, feel good.
Semoga selalu cari ilmu dan amal ilmu.

Mama doa for Yusuf, Fatimah & Yunus yang terbaik, dunia & akhirat.

Jadi anak soleh & solehah k.

Love, 

Mama

May You Guys Grow Good

Mama doa my kids semua grow good.

Im doing my very best. Im sorry for all the shortcomings. Love you bunch.

Love,

Mama

Elena Turns 2

Alang-alang Raya Haji in KL, met up with half of the family for Elena's 2nd Birthday.
Eva and Elena both wore cute pink dresses bought by the granny. Semoga Elena membesar bijak, solehah and cutesies always!!!

Love,

Mommy K

Their First Recital

One for the memory! Best! They had fun. We all had fun! Semoga ada lagi lepas ni, kids did good! Alhamdulillah.

His 7th

The first turned 7 last November 2023. Creating memories is always good. Always. Semoga Abang berjaya dunia akhirat, doa mama sentiasa yg baik2 utk Abang. Love you my first.

End of 2023/2024 Session

Felt surreal.
But Alhamdulillah.
Semoga Abang berjaya dunia akhirat, Mama doa utk anak2 Mama setiap hari.Semoga semua berjaya. Berjaya dunia dan berjaya akhirat.