from petite with love

yesterday dearest baby brother brought me to meet another level of honesty and truth.meeting this one little petite girl taught me things.i thank her so much for opening up my eyes without she realizes this.
its nice to be back here in my hometown having everyone,each of every one in my family.sofia,kak syaza and abang are literally here!

thought i would act weird.thought that i would be insane.thought of inacceptance.thought of being a very bad big sister.what i had with me all this while was a 'REJECT' rubber stamp and red stamp pad.after all,it wasnt that hard to accept.and to enjoy existence of love.even it is small.even it is for awhile.even it is from a very petite little girl. =)
never knew i have one big gigantic 'GRANTED' rubber stamp and green stamp pad with me all this while,hiding in my pocket.

wondered for few years on how good people can accept bad people in their lives.how that particular family welcomes me into their hut of love.after all what i did.after all the hurts and tears.
and yesterday,everything became clearer.seriously it wasnt that hard to love our loved ones' love.or loves.
i see love in a very different way now.
xoxoshikhin

Girls and their minds

As at now,u may know me as a lady with emotional thoughts filled with negative energy that come with strong minds and positive spirit.em hm,im that complicated.after taking my 1st shower of the day,i thought of writing down words and post it here in my blog.We girls are very complicated i admit.i read somewhere and cant agree more on "even girls dont understand themselves".at times,we want this and that,a certain of that and this,and at all times,we drool for handbags and shoes,lots of them that guys can never figure out why.LOL.
Not to forget our own famous phrase of "what to wear???i have no clothes".

And unfortunately guys are in love with us and are having the will to accept us and our twisted minds!(girls,beware of boundaries and limit,dont get close to it and cross). :)
After years of wanting to be beautiful and skinny and shiny bling2 with all the high heels and power dresses sticking with gorgeous handbags and blinking accessories,we tend to stop and say "im tired of not eating and staring at good food without eating them and spending all this bucks to buy designers dresses and heels and handbags and accessories!".

I want to live.and eat and have fun and sing along to cindy lauper's girls just wanna haf fun!
And.
As we switch on the tv watching e-news and scouted,we get back to ground zero and be crazy all over again.
Girls and their twisted minds.i am one of those.a confession here,hello...
That is one example.

Same goes to our study and career.
We tend to decide and re-decide.
Grateful being a lady.
xoxoshikhin