Spoil it all

And then I go and spoil it all by saying I love you! robbienicole xoxoshikhin

Being girls

I think Im being absolutely normal on this. Girls are like that you know. So it is okay for me to feel this way. Though you tell me it is really not okay, I just don’t care. The feeling is nice, the thoughts are addictive and I just love being a part of the girls’ planet. Apart from the saying that girls just don’t know how to drive not-recklessly, well…..at times I just don’t mind…Go ahead and say it and nothing bothers me on that! =) xoxoshikhin

Faced off

Now that Im done, I feel relieved and much better. Alhamdulillah. It was not as bad as I imagined but just as good as I expected. So, again. Alhamdulillah for the courage God’s given me. xoxoshikhin

Nervous. Scared.

Kalau salah, memang takut. Kalau tak salah, nak takut buat apa? Tapi kalau salah pun tak, tak salah pun tak,how? I don’t wanna be scared of my phone ringing, I don’t wanna be nervous picking up phone calls from I-don’t-know-who. This feeling kills. I’ll be having cold feet and shaky hands. And my mind just cannot stop thinking about IT. Stop running. Get it done and face them. xoxoshikhin

Back on track

Atiqah and Roslina introduced me to a new gang. A gang that I never imagined I’d be in. A gang that brings me back on track, again. Alhamdulilah the first meeting was incredible. There were tears here and there, but the knowledge and things that remind you of you and where you come from, that is priceless. Short and sweet note to self: Solah is the answer if you’re longing for a conversation with Allah, Quran is the answer if you’re longing for Allah’s words. xoxoshikhin

News Update

Wednesday-27june2012. I was called into a meeting room (romm12, level10) by my performance manager. I was nervous all morning until that very moment. Received the news from her and knowing peeps behind all the stories kinda amazed me and ruined my whole day. Cried in that very room and all journey to current client’s. Tried my best to have half day ML as I really needed to get my cough med and had slight temperature. Nope, it was a failure till I had to swear I was gonna go to Jalan P. Ramlee. Of course I didn’t have the mood to keep on working and I was just acting normal, as a normal human being who has feelings. Can you ever imagine, people asking you on the spot whether you gonna resign or give it a try for another 6 months? I mean, oh my my. You kidding me with that question? It really was not a good news to me and you asked me to decide on the spot. I mean, what the ice??? I was not backing myself up 100% cause the decision has been made. Ya, in this kinda industry, u just cant mess up even once. Well I was saying things just to not make it that easy for you. Things are not falling into my plan but, who the ice care? InsyaAllah God has a better plan for me, in this near future. Im coming back to my family. And that is real a biggy thing to me! xoxoshikhin

Highlight

I’m bad enough to know that I’m bad. Stop highlighting. xoxoshikhin