now you know

When I left you out alone
Then you asked me where I went
Why took me so long
Etc.
Now you know
How I felt
Being left out
Alone
xoxoshikhin

handbag vs ice-cream

Handbags lover cannot be ice-cream lover at the same time.
Craved for red bean ice-cream when the handbag itself craves for the ice cream.
Result: Handbag comot.
Solution: Buy new one. (should i?)
Feeling: Sad and Likey likey!
xoxoshikhin

stuck like glue

Lovin this song from Sugarland so much!
Feels like dancing and doing cowgirl moves
Im stuck on you!
Stuck like glue!
You know who you are! 
xoxoshikhin

sleepyhead

I feel so sleepy now
After that hot and long walk outside
After having a round-up platter
At Kenny Rodger’s
Seriously
Nothing can help me at the moment
Except for a straight clean floor
So that I could lie down
And sleep. With or without a cushion. Or a pillow.
I am so angry at myself now
So mad
I am mad at me
How come my eyes are sooooo heavy
And I can still type with half-closed eyes
I have to find something to keep me awake
To keep on doing my job
My duties
I don’t think having a cup of Milo would help
But I just walked out of this super cozy room to the pantry
I took a cup of Milo
And having it
That short of walk helped. For awhile.
I wish I could take caffeine. Could drink coffee.
They said it helps.
Just searched for Yuyi oil from my laptop bag
Cause I used to have it in case of emergency
That kinda emergency
So that I can have a smell. And stay sane.
Unfortunately, Yuyi is not here!
Thinking of asking from my client whether they have Minyak Cap Kapak
Seems so unprofessional!
You know what? I feel better now! A lot better!
Writing keeps me alive, at least awake.
Gosh, I have at least 5 more hours to go. F.I.V.E.
I repeat, F.I.V.E!
S.O.S please save me!
xoxoshikhin

nothing as the reward

Waiting and sacrificing.
Contributing and letting go.
Didn’t take a minute
Didn’t take an hour
Not a month, not a year
But years
Hope was there. It was gone at one moment.
Then it was there, again.
Hope is here now.
What would you do, how would you act,
When you got to know
And realize
That there’s no reward
Nothing is a reward
Nothing as THE reward.
xoxoshikhin

born this way

Born this way
Learn to be the other way, learning is not a crime
Doing and practicing are considered as crimes
Trying is considered as half crime
Acceptable half crime
Is there such word or phrase?
Giggle. Acceptable half crime.
Tired and had enough
Enough is enough
Finding ways and searching methods
Searching for the right one and finding the best
If it’s an A, it will always be an A
Trying to innovate an A- or better an A+
Then everything gets clearer
When the fact does not jive
When the fact does not talk
Facts need to talk, need to coordinate
Everytime I try to lie, cheat, hide facts,
I’d be having this feeling.
I was born this way.
xoxoshikhin

straight into the face

Just when you thought they are evil
And when you thought they are mean
Then they tell you
Take one day break
Have one day off
Rest, refresh and recover
When you just can’t face that
Another one day
When you just can’t stay productive
and keep your sanity
Take one day off
And start fresh the very next day
Got these straight from the Red
Gets me thinking
Should I stay or should I leave
xoxoshikhin