two three one two zero one one

so much to keep..
so much to tell..

so much to share..
so much to hide..
i do feel old.i do feel lost.

so much to learn.
so much to gain.so much to face.so much to compromise.
a lot to digest.
a lot to think of.
a lot of problems.issues.unthinkable matters.unsolvable topics.

missing.love.distance.far.near.pity.
dreams and nightmare.
loving smiles.wishing dresses.lovely high heels.

pretending.to love and to be loved.
as clear as water.as dull as charcoal.
wants and needs.unseparatable.both is better.to choose is worst.
all is perfect.one is imperfect.
ignorance.shyness.hiding away.scared.being scarry.sixty.
forty seven.fifty five.fifty.twenty three.

the rich and the poor.wishes do come true.wishes are only wishes.
reality vs fantasy.fantasy is dream.fantasy is forever fantasy.a mansion.
thousands of diamonds.gold and platinum.
humble.
sweet.life.a challenge.friends.and enemies.now and forever.
nothing lasts.uncertainty and pleasure.

life is a chellenge.challenge it back.face it!stand up!survive.stand up and survive.dont fall down.dont beg.dont let sadness stay.call happiness.ask it to stay.happiness,please stay forever.please.now u can beg.beg to happiness.
pray.prays.praying.prayer.prayers.prayed.
they say just do it.

they say think of the consequences.you know you.you dont know you.you dont know others.you assume.again,assumptions.
hypothesis.findings and conclusions.

here and there.malaysia and london.alor star and subang jaya.slowly.quickly.time flies.tick tock tick tock.
enviness.jealousy.insecure.girls and women.a bunch.a circle and a bundle.
chocolate and yam.marshmallow and chocolate.

dont change.im afraid.fight and kick-boxing.jump up high!high to the sky,moon and sun.starry starry night.patience pays.be patient then.

not knowing hurts.knowing hurts too.
tired and tiring.decision forever.decide now.decide later.people stop you.prevent yourself.avoidance and hatred.

i told you.i am much.
xoxoshikhin