mama's food

mama masak kat rumah yesterday.
she brought everything on the plane just for her kids to eat.
how 'mama' is that?
so mama kan?
i ate 2 plates of white rice+6 pieces of chicken+potatoes+2 fishes.
all at 1am.
yes.
20mins b4 i go to sleep.
way to go girl!
xoxoshikhin

following her

how would u feel knowing someone is following u.
not 'following' as in 'creepy scary following'.
this is following as in u being her fashion idol.
girl,i wear what i have,what people presented me,and what i am comfortable in.
nothing expensive and nothing too cool that u can look up to.
be urself la..
hai..bole pulak mcm tu.
xoxoshikhin

coffee maker

i got a cofffe maker for getting the title "best dancer of the night"
during tok mami's bollywood ladies' night.
god i moved a lot.
families were around..
i got that dance floor fully mine wen i had to perform my cheating dance accompanied with a bollywood song wic i myself dnt even rmmbr.
i had my time that night.
and i did my far test the next day n got 80% for it.
thanks to him..
xoxoshikhin

nicole richie

she was bigger than me.
she is smaller than me.
she has one child.
is carrying another one.
yet she is smaller than me.
im switching 'it' on.
good luck shikhin!
xoxoshikhin

pics that kill you

just by looking at others pics might kill you.
either u realize it or not.
then all that cloudy clouds start to play inside your mind adding with all those lightning and thunder..
u started to look down low..feeling so small..having nothing though u actually have all what u needed already.
tell yourself,they r just pictures..
pics with thousands of words..good..bad..happy..sad..words..
remind urself that u already have everything that u needed,not everything what u wanted.
isn't that more than enough?isn't that make who you are today?isn't that what define you?
stop comparing!!
xoxoshikhin

nani

i rushed to puchong assuming every1 was there.
seemed that uda was the only one.
mama showed me some more of his pics.why now when i miss him so damn much?
mama ni...
abg ngah told mama about my test tomorrow.
got back home.
nani still in hukm.
how i wish i could go and visit.i could meet makandak,maksu baby etc.
pray that nani will get well soon.
amin
xoxoshikhin

gap

im feeling 'the gap' starting in these few days..
is it so hard to be 'you'?
is it wrong to just act the way u r?
i am so tired of being in the position that i cannot do a single thing and i just have to deal with 'it' the way 'it' is.in short,take it or take it.
shorter version:deal with it.
shortest version:wateverrr!!!!
well,changes are good in some ways but can we just don't do it abruptly?
I NEED MAMA N BA!!
xoxoshikhin