small

i was not born small. =(

something new

i'll buy new sport shoes and new sport pants.
booster of december dream.
nicole is hot!

xoxokin

pixie back

its a bad sign i wanna be pixie again.
be strong younger brother.
i love u.
xoxokin

mad saturday

2 hours queing at the immigration for nothing and couldnt come bck home on time and send mama 2 the airport as the class ended 2 hours later than planned.

=(

terrible.

awal muharram

salam maal hijrah to all muslims.i believe we must celebrate maal hijrah waaaaay more than the calendar new year rite?have your new year resolutions and work towards them.nothing is unobtainable with hardwork and persistency!

sadly,ystrday ws one of my worst days.i kinda know from where all the talking came from (obviously my hormones) but things seemed so bad yesterday.waking up to a very bloated tummy,round face,and everything.sounds a lot silly but it aint that silly when u already lost 10kgs and simply gained 3kgs within 3 days.kill me please.

mama always reminded us that rezeki tu Allah yg bagi.other people frm othr part of the world are dying due to starvation and here i am complaining of excessive food.round face to some people signifies kindness and motherly yet i hate it.to africans being thick is considered high value when i just hate being me.

i didnt want to see anybody yesterday.if only i could jst wrapped up in my own old comfy i would.i chose to be miserable,terrible and horrible and i chose to be that yesterday.how stupid.

i wntd to visit tok mama and tok ba but i did not.im mad at me.mama cooked ayam masak lemak and i had my platessss of rice.for whatever reason,i keep on doing things that i love which resulted me negatively.

thought of moving to aloq staq stay with mama and ba.take care of them.they are growing old and i dont want to even gve me a slight chance of regret later on.i want to be there when mama needs someone to listen to her office stories.i want to be there for ba when he needs someone to feed the cats and pong the chicken.

obstacles.or maybe u cn say alasan.im currently working in pj,studying for my mba inshaallah completing in two yrs time.see??now i hate the decision ive made.its been yrs i wntd to return to aloq staq but.

that BUT.

a lot of things to consider.the least thing i wna feel is regret.
bus to kl was at 530pm and i slept three quarter of the journey.i didnt want to think.i didnt want to wonder about things.penat.

how bad ystrday ws to me,yet i thank Allah i woke up this morning feeling better.so much better.alhamdulillah.although thoughts are still wandering around in that cloud on top of my head,at least i feel better.

note that things will nvr b the way u wnt it to be.it'll be better or it'll b slight less than what u expectd.i mean,we r human arent we.the world is round.believe.b thankful.ingat yg lg kurang dr kita.

be a better u this yr!
love your parents.
sacrifice.
for good or bad.

love kin.

pengapit kulim

today i was the pengapit to bashi for zainal's kenduri.i wore nude kebaya belongs to shikah.hehe.sampai jugak kulim thanks to mama shi. =)

xoxokin

shi zainal big day

i know i went late for the kenduri but then again,i had my own private time with the groom and bride!!
royal kedah club is such a lovely place to have weddings.to those planning to get married,well,consider this!

the hall was decorated with flowers at all angles and flowers will never fail u!
the first thing i noticed was shi's wedding dress which i understood flown from the UK!!!looovvveeee!
nice to meet the mum and sis as well as wawa!too bad hajar,aida and some othr asmarians who i didnt get the chance to join the mini gath.
well,tomorrow is my day to b shi's pengapit.wish me luck!
congrats to shi n zainal!
semoga kekal ke syurga insyaallah.
xoxokin