The Pressure

Presence is priceless. Presence is a gift! Sorry if all the shares I did bit by bit putting pressure on you. Friends are having times of their lives and as you’re not here, so all the updates I made solely intended to share. Worry no more knowing that I’m not ready. Yup it’s hard to get me, knowing that I’m happy for others on the matter. Being happy and excited for others not necessarily mean that I would be happy if it was to happen to me. In case I’ll be the last, just so you know that I might still be not ready for it. Now how hard is that to bear with? Talk no more. xoxoshikhin

When the time is right

No one has ever waited for things to fall into place when it is time. We tend to rush and tell the world that it has to be now. Now is the perfect moment. Now is the time. It cannot be tomorrow, cannot be next week, cannot be next month, and definitely cannot be next year! We are being normal human beings who are greedy and patience is not the first word on the first page of our living dictionary. So yeah. Life is not everything about rushing into things and who gets there first. Most of the time, yeah, it is that way. But not all the time! Each of us has our own path that we choose and there is time for every life point. Each and every one of us does not take 2 years to get from point A to point B. Some may take less than that, some may take more than that. The feeling of being left out and late, not in the trend or not at par, that feeling is urgh. Hate it. But, what’s the rush? Death will come for sure. On time. Not a second late, not a second early. So again, what’s the rush? Oldies pass us this one thing called ‘patience’ but to apply it in current world, it is hard no? Hard, but do-able. If they can, why can’t we? Pray to God for your strength and rationale. Remember, when the time is right, it’ll happen. =) xoxoshikhin

kardashian krazy who?

i love them siblings till bits!
xoxoshikhin

gang green gang with ABC

xoxoshikhin

a not-so-bad emergency

it was the night when manutd vs stoke game was on at 4am,that we had an IJN emergency.

the lounge was not bad,the TV was not that small,the crowd was supportive and I witnessed the game in a very peaceful-hospitally atmosphere.
=)
*wink
xoxoshikhin

planned (not) come-together

4 Feb 2012-Alor Star
she told me that she will be gone by tomorrow night,my mind ran like a wild boar.what to do,where to go,how to get there,and when.and who.
a small gath it was!

never thought that i'd miss them this much,
guess i do!
my very-close-to-my-heart girls:bashirah,aida and izati.
added up with my long-lost high school friends:fatin inani and atikah rashidan.
a lot more to share and exchange,the stories could go on and on and on till dont-know-when.

what i know that we still are the same exact people who were studying and crying together when we were 16,17 and away in Langkawi.
i love you girls so dear.

lawyer,auditor,doctor and lecturer.
we are...urm...jumbled up!

hope to see you all soon!
azwa,wish you were there.i miss you..
xoxoshikhin

from petite with love

yesterday dearest baby brother brought me to meet another level of honesty and truth.meeting this one little petite girl taught me things.i thank her so much for opening up my eyes without she realizes this.
its nice to be back here in my hometown having everyone,each of every one in my family.sofia,kak syaza and abang are literally here!

thought i would act weird.thought that i would be insane.thought of inacceptance.thought of being a very bad big sister.what i had with me all this while was a 'REJECT' rubber stamp and red stamp pad.after all,it wasnt that hard to accept.and to enjoy existence of love.even it is small.even it is for awhile.even it is from a very petite little girl. =)
never knew i have one big gigantic 'GRANTED' rubber stamp and green stamp pad with me all this while,hiding in my pocket.

wondered for few years on how good people can accept bad people in their lives.how that particular family welcomes me into their hut of love.after all what i did.after all the hurts and tears.
and yesterday,everything became clearer.seriously it wasnt that hard to love our loved ones' love.or loves.
i see love in a very different way now.
xoxoshikhin