planned (not) come-together

4 Feb 2012-Alor Star
she told me that she will be gone by tomorrow night,my mind ran like a wild boar.what to do,where to go,how to get there,and when.and who.
a small gath it was!

never thought that i'd miss them this much,
guess i do!
my very-close-to-my-heart girls:bashirah,aida and izati.
added up with my long-lost high school friends:fatin inani and atikah rashidan.
a lot more to share and exchange,the stories could go on and on and on till dont-know-when.

what i know that we still are the same exact people who were studying and crying together when we were 16,17 and away in Langkawi.
i love you girls so dear.

lawyer,auditor,doctor and lecturer.
we are...urm...jumbled up!

hope to see you all soon!
azwa,wish you were there.i miss you..
xoxoshikhin

from petite with love

yesterday dearest baby brother brought me to meet another level of honesty and truth.meeting this one little petite girl taught me things.i thank her so much for opening up my eyes without she realizes this.
its nice to be back here in my hometown having everyone,each of every one in my family.sofia,kak syaza and abang are literally here!

thought i would act weird.thought that i would be insane.thought of inacceptance.thought of being a very bad big sister.what i had with me all this while was a 'REJECT' rubber stamp and red stamp pad.after all,it wasnt that hard to accept.and to enjoy existence of love.even it is small.even it is for awhile.even it is from a very petite little girl. =)
never knew i have one big gigantic 'GRANTED' rubber stamp and green stamp pad with me all this while,hiding in my pocket.

wondered for few years on how good people can accept bad people in their lives.how that particular family welcomes me into their hut of love.after all what i did.after all the hurts and tears.
and yesterday,everything became clearer.seriously it wasnt that hard to love our loved ones' love.or loves.
i see love in a very different way now.
xoxoshikhin

Girls and their minds

As at now,u may know me as a lady with emotional thoughts filled with negative energy that come with strong minds and positive spirit.em hm,im that complicated.after taking my 1st shower of the day,i thought of writing down words and post it here in my blog.We girls are very complicated i admit.i read somewhere and cant agree more on "even girls dont understand themselves".at times,we want this and that,a certain of that and this,and at all times,we drool for handbags and shoes,lots of them that guys can never figure out why.LOL.
Not to forget our own famous phrase of "what to wear???i have no clothes".

And unfortunately guys are in love with us and are having the will to accept us and our twisted minds!(girls,beware of boundaries and limit,dont get close to it and cross). :)
After years of wanting to be beautiful and skinny and shiny bling2 with all the high heels and power dresses sticking with gorgeous handbags and blinking accessories,we tend to stop and say "im tired of not eating and staring at good food without eating them and spending all this bucks to buy designers dresses and heels and handbags and accessories!".

I want to live.and eat and have fun and sing along to cindy lauper's girls just wanna haf fun!
And.
As we switch on the tv watching e-news and scouted,we get back to ground zero and be crazy all over again.
Girls and their twisted minds.i am one of those.a confession here,hello...
That is one example.

Same goes to our study and career.
We tend to decide and re-decide.
Grateful being a lady.
xoxoshikhin

cheers to 2012

as far i can remember,its been years that losing loadddssss and lotss of weight has been the ONE and ONLY new year resolution for my last i-cnt-rmmbr years.
well,i suppose this year im having the same.
i wont,i repeat,i wont back off and wont turn back on this.
until i achieve.
do-able but too much excuses i gave to myself.
too much.in fact,sooo much!!
i have the ability to do.
ive done this before.
i believe i can,again.
we'll see how my ups and down (referring to weight) for this year.
i want.i need.i must.this.
xoxoshikhin

the end of 2011

so much to remember and so much to be forgotten.
there goes one year behind you.another is coming in front of you.
life is a wheel that goes round and round.
and round again.
you're on top.
you're at the bottom.
i thank Allah for every single phase of the wheel.the ups and downs as well as the stays of both.
everyday is a learning day.
thank you dear family,for being there for me at all times.
thank you sayang for every strong speech of yours.(they nvr fail to help!)
thank you dear friends,for lightened up my happy and sad days.
thank you myself for being this strong.
(i hardly cry now!)
thank you 2011.i welcome 2012 with wide arms open!
xoxoshikhin

KAFTAN

cant get over kaftan!
seriously i personally think that they are beauuuuutiful!and pleasant!
something good to die for!
doesnt matter whether you are tall,not so tall,thin and not so thin.anyone can rock them so i say.add them up with heels and you are ready to go!

credit to:
thestyloboutique.blogspot.com


credit to:
cutecarry.com


xoxoshikhin

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i thought that i thought about everything and acted.i thought wrongly.and i acted wrongly.
xoxoshikhin