after raya 2011,ive been living an unhealthy lifestyle.
i was a food victim.mayb back then during my diploma years.
and now, i am again.
back in kedah for my study leaves doesnt help.
i have mummy cooking me good stuff.
i have stalls having good food bargains.
everything is so near and so cheap.
been staring at youtubes diet videos for awhile now.
awesome results and thinspiration.
looking and watching just wont do anything to me.
learning and not doing is pathetic.
im at my heaviest.
in my whole 23 years old life.
i will fall sick and have my fever everytime i go overboard with food.
i would stop,knowing all the signals.
that was back then.
but now,i dont have all that anymore.and that makes me scared.
something is really wrong somewhere.
what makes me write?
having a headache and feel like throwing up.now.
really something is wrong.
i have to stop doing this to myself.
wake up.
xoxoshikhin