she's made it!!!

meet my girlfriend,julissa razali.
i got a very very very very excited news from her this morning.
i want to congratulate her and i want the world to know how proud i am of her.
congratulations ju!!!
i am sooooo proud of u!
sisterhood always!
lotsa hugs n kisses 4 u!
xoxoshikhin

tell me about it

last night,i did a punjabi catwalk on a table runway.
freaked me out!!!!
can dream be a little more weird than that?
xoxoshikhin

sabah sarawak??common...

these few months ive been dreaming of weird dreams..i dreamt of shocking proposal from mommy's friend whom i dont even know exists with his kinda short son last night.and a dream involving me at a rehersal of a performance somewhere in the rural area having people playing sumpit.perhaps i was in sabah or sarawak.and few weeks ago i dreamt of shocking proposal in a beautiful ceremony took place in a hall.i saw that big diamond ring!!!

okay.i dont wanna get married yet.
so to such dreams,please stop coming.you freak me out!
xoxoshikhin

black magic

i slept during the day and had this very odd dream.the setting is at tok mama's house.there were five magicians consist of three handsome caucasian men and two caucasian women.i kinda hangout with them and they showed me all the magic tricks they are able to do.
one came to me and 'read' me and i thought the reading part about me is all true.other trick includes changing the sky's colour.

pretty awesome i felt like i was hanging around with vampires from eclipse or something.at the end of the dream,i got a little bit scared though.

who wouldnt?
xoxoshikhin

after one year

today is exactly one year of the death of king of pop,michael jackson.
honestly,i am not a really2 dying fan of him but i do grow up listening to his hits.and yeah,i love them.very unique and different from others' song works.radios are playing his hits all day long.good job peeps!
the fact that he died as a muslim touches my heart so much.al fatihah to him and may he rest in peace..

no one can ever replace you and you should know that michael.
you've done what you had to do and left behind a legacy.
we'll remember you for that.
xoxoshikhin

degrees

i have a phd doctorate degree in hurting people.
and im not proud of that.
i have a master degree in making the same mistakes again and again.
im not proud of that either.
i have a bachelor degree in saying im sorry.
i kinda proud of that.
i have a diploma in forgetting things.
again,im not proud of that.
sorry does not seem to be the hardest word.
for everything ive done to u,
im truly deeply sorry.
xoxoshikhin

when im mad

when im mad,i do faces.
ugly faces.
when im mad,i clean up.
clean up furiously.
when im mad,i keep silence.
evil silence.
when im mad,i eat.
eat like a hippo.
when im mad,my voice change.
different tone.
when im mad,i want to be alone.
so i wont hurt others.
when im mad,i'll b ok the next second.
i calm myself down.

im good at pretending,
but when im mad,stay away to not to get hurt.
im unpredictable.
mood swings are normal.
im a woman.
im one of a kind.
xoxoshikhin