degrees

i have a phd doctorate degree in hurting people.
and im not proud of that.
i have a master degree in making the same mistakes again and again.
im not proud of that either.
i have a bachelor degree in saying im sorry.
i kinda proud of that.
i have a diploma in forgetting things.
again,im not proud of that.
sorry does not seem to be the hardest word.
for everything ive done to u,
im truly deeply sorry.
xoxoshikhin

when im mad

when im mad,i do faces.
ugly faces.
when im mad,i clean up.
clean up furiously.
when im mad,i keep silence.
evil silence.
when im mad,i eat.
eat like a hippo.
when im mad,my voice change.
different tone.
when im mad,i want to be alone.
so i wont hurt others.
when im mad,i'll b ok the next second.
i calm myself down.

im good at pretending,
but when im mad,stay away to not to get hurt.
im unpredictable.
mood swings are normal.
im a woman.
im one of a kind.
xoxoshikhin

dog vs cats

one dog came into the compound at around 3.30am barking so loud and attacked my cats last night.all for the sake of wanting to eat cat's food.hey,u r a dog.act like one.
what a shame to your clans and generations.
xoxoshikhin

im scared

im scared to be happy.
im scared to laugh.
im scared to smile.
im scared of losses.
im scared of needing to share.
im scared of failing.
im scared if things dont work.
im scared of haters.
im scared of joining.
im scared of unacceptance.
im scared of loneliness.
im scared of avoidance.
im scared of imperfection.
im scared to start.
im scared to end.
im scared to plan.
im scared to try.
im scared of liars.
im scared of lies.
im scared to enjoy.
im scared of fun.

im scared of true love.
true love is so good to be true.
im scared.
xoxoshikhin

two siblings gone insane

went shopping with dzafri in queensbay was a memory.we are professional shoppers i would say.we went two different ways,met again and found out we had spent the same exact amount of money though i got more pieces compared to him!!

i watched sex and the city 2 on its very opening day!!!my most waited movie of the year.i was in queensbay penang with dzafri and knowing that he's under age,we planned to watch a-team.guess what happened when i was at the ticket counter?"sex and the city 2 for two please".perfect.

and i didnt regret saying so!!love the movie so much and the character Big reminds me of my love,baim.such a nice,sweet,gentleman,macho,charming man.enough said.absolute heart drop with all the clothes and the $22,000 per night hotel in abu dhabi!!!how i wish!!


we had sushi king right after the movie.as there is zero sushi king franchise in alor star,so we had sushi party when we found a franchise in queensbay.we ordered as if we havent eat in thousand years,we attacked the food as if we were eating at home's dining table,and we reorder as if we have all the cash in the world.at the end of the meal,u guess it right.credit card indeed.
xoxoshikhin

tanjung bungah

i just got back from mummy's office trip to penang.as it was a last-minute planning and school holidays bla bla,we didnt get better hotel compared to tanjung bungah beach hotel in tanjung bunga.so..there were us.mama,me and dzafri.we took two connecting rooms so that we feel a little bit more comfortable.

we've been there before,but this time,the hotel seemed to be newly renovated.the lobby,i love muchos!!nice beach view even from the open lobby.the restaurant food is so-so,but the bayu lounge's decorations...we called it fabulosity!!!a pool table is inside there.i went hanging out there with dzafri last night being entertained by the live band called 'friends'.

i collected five colourless shells from the shore.im thinking of creating jewelleries out of those.nice...well,i do have problems with the reception girl and that restaurant guard man.uuurrrgghhh!!long story.

all in all,it was an okay three days two nights stay when mummy has job to do.i love penang!
xoxoshikhin

h&m style guide

h&m webpage is awesome.i made these two from the web itself.these what i chose to wear.simple and cosy looks.

look no. 1



look no. 2



credit to h&m webpage.it was fun mix matching!
xoxoshikhin