avoidable but uncontrollable

im writing this to myself.
dear shikhin,
u just haf to accept that when that time comes,arises,during the month,u just need to relax and accept that u will get a lot bigger,gain up to 5kgs in no time,having big tummy again,unpredictable emotions and mind,a lot more sensitive,eating a lot that u urslf noe that it is just AVOIDABLE BUT UNCONTROLABLE.u are a lady,with unstable hormones in u which at the end of the day makes u a normal lady.love urslf just the way u r.be grateful.
love,me.
xoxoshikhin

log book

I started my practical training on 1st june 2009 in ahmad abdullah and goh,chartered accountant,wisma hangsam,kl.daily diary:
1 june,mon;filing
2 june,tues;been assigned 2 a co
3 june,wed;outstation team
4 june,thurs;stdy file
will b updating,daily.
xoxoshikhin

rush day

simplified version:
type-ijn-print-post
it was raining heavily on my way back from ijn.
i just need to losen up a lil bit and chillax a lil more.
done evrything including crying.
i just dont want to work like my dad,i may get a heart attack.
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i read a blog,get jealous after reading it.oh my........oh my.....
xoxoshikhin

shop disease

oh my...
i just cannot stand the eager to shop for my watch list...
its end of the month..i have not enough cents to go out n buy things..
i was thinking of sources which i laughed after realizing the condition i am in now.
gosh,what am i doing?am i okay?
certainly cannot wait!!!
i promised myself to start saving next month.can i really do that??
anyway,i dreamt of going out shopping choosing which clincher i want.cn u imagine how bad the condition i am in now?very,very bad.
dangerous.
harzardous.
contagious.
xoxoshikhin

dbkl

my daddy is losing his appetite.i dont have any problem with that.the thing is,my grandma taught me to finish everything i eat.i certainly am good at that.but,i just cannot stand to see other people who doesnt finish their meal.i,being me,i eat the leftovers.that is my problem.
i am gaining my weight now which i hate it so bad.
i skipped my gym classes because of things..and i dont think i can skip anymore class.
people,please finish up your food.pity me.i dont want to be a dbkl for the whole of my life.
xoxoshikhin

inspirations

as im going to have my practical training from june to november,these are my inspirations.
simple long sleeve with high-waist pants
i have that army-colour look-a-like dress from MNG.add on a clincher,nice.
double layered top
vest
something more casual
pencil skirts
sweet

already-have lv collections

1.black vernis speedy
2.monogram speedy
3.black denim xl mahina
4.stephen sprouse pink neverfull
5.xl mahina white