pics that kill you

just by looking at others pics might kill you.
either u realize it or not.
then all that cloudy clouds start to play inside your mind adding with all those lightning and thunder..
u started to look down low..feeling so small..having nothing though u actually have all what u needed already.
tell yourself,they r just pictures..
pics with thousands of words..good..bad..happy..sad..words..
remind urself that u already have everything that u needed,not everything what u wanted.
isn't that more than enough?isn't that make who you are today?isn't that what define you?
stop comparing!!
xoxoshikhin

nani

i rushed to puchong assuming every1 was there.
seemed that uda was the only one.
mama showed me some more of his pics.why now when i miss him so damn much?
mama ni...
abg ngah told mama about my test tomorrow.
got back home.
nani still in hukm.
how i wish i could go and visit.i could meet makandak,maksu baby etc.
pray that nani will get well soon.
amin
xoxoshikhin

gap

im feeling 'the gap' starting in these few days..
is it so hard to be 'you'?
is it wrong to just act the way u r?
i am so tired of being in the position that i cannot do a single thing and i just have to deal with 'it' the way 'it' is.in short,take it or take it.
shorter version:deal with it.
shortest version:wateverrr!!!!
well,changes are good in some ways but can we just don't do it abruptly?
I NEED MAMA N BA!!
xoxoshikhin

lovin them

1.soulja boy-kiss me thru the phone
2.lady gaga-poker face
3.florida-right round
4.rihanna-hatin' on the club

cik jun

we finished our ethics class earlier after laughing at all those
funny yucky stories pn. erlane told us. (wani n fatin skipped the class)
went into far class where everyone laughed at me at the end of that an-hour-earlier-finished class.
practically,i was half screaming with my not-so-clear voice (still having my flu)
when cik jun announced that the class is over.
i was in shocked when i heard that.who wasn't?
everyone.but me.
cik jun went on with her created story of me saying that after having approval from 'his' family on my marriage,his parents should go to the teacher(cik jun) asking whether im good or not.cik jun will tell the family that shikhin is fine.she is very easy to please.if she gets mad at the husband,the husband can just say "i'll be home early today" to clear things up.
well,im not that easy anyway.haha.lol.
xoxoshikhin

ccm

what a day.2 hours class in the morning n waited till 1pm.
class trip to ccm,the mall.
there goes my u-know-what-they-call plan.
i had RICE for lunch.
and KFC for dinner.
guess call it my eat-day.
planned to attend a seminar on stocks but unfortunetely,not having a tip-top car's condition.
straight back home.
home alone.
xoxoshikhin

maulidurasul

the whole day i spent my time with mama(baim's).
i cooked,i cleaned,i learnt,i tasted,i nannied,i everything.
:)
kenduri at d'place went well other than all the small2 things..
i gave babah his belated birthday cheek-kiss.
met so many ppl including the relatives..mama's friends..
che yah likes sumthing abt me..
mama's friend said sumthing abt me..hehe
went back at nearly 11pm.
had a panadol n straight to bed.
still not feeling well today...uurrrgghh!!
xoxoshikhin