internal

last night was my first night sleeping in the new house.plus minus 500m from the old apmnt.
kinda tired unpacking stuffs of me n my sis.
so much to do,so little time.
and seems like the flu is going to stick with me for some more time.flu,go away!!!
and yes,im having sum sort of inner problem with myself.
its getting more serious day to day..
im hating the feeling.yet,i dont know what else will work for me.
he's always there for me.helping me go through my days,bad days.thank u so much.
my internal is just so000 degil.sorry for that..
what's happening to me???
xoxoshikhin

flash back

after i got my very teruk result,i guess its time to muhasabah diri,flashback things that i did before..and change my attitude towards doing and seeing things.
to all those people ive done wrong,im sorry..from the bottom of my heart..
this time,it really open my eyes,wide..open my mind,wider..
guess i need to stick to the promise i made to mama before i stepped my feet into uitm.
i promised her that i wouldnt skip any classes..
well,i did for sumtimes..sorry ma..
it was raining sooo heavily and one of the days,i thought the class had been cancelled,thats y i didnt attend the class..sorry again..
i am very proud of myself this semester on one thing,i sit in the 1st row in my classes.glad i did that.and realised,that one is not enuf for me to do well in my exams.
maybe i didnt prepare myself enough.didnt study enuf.
i accept my result in a positive way.
things in life that teach and change us.make us more mature.
wish all the best to all my uitm friends and myself.we'll do better this time,okay?
xoxoshikhin

doctors

just got back from penang general hospital.
god,i think this is my 1st time seeing the reality of public hospital.
there were so many people with so many sicknesses.
some were just not patient enuf to wait for their queue,some were waiting with families,some were so alone..
chinese old men..indian kids..malay women..
the nurses were so busy going here n there..there is no chance for them to even have a sit for a minute..
surely either nurse or a doctor,its not an easy job.
dato dr omar ismail advised not to study medic if ure under ur parents' HUGE influence.be a doctor if u urself want to be one.
its true when hun says,doctors put their lives behind just to save other people's lives.
to all the doctors and becoming doctors out there,u all are awesome!!!
dr omar told us,in 10 letters hospital received,9 out of them are complain letters and only 1 is an appreciation letter.can u imagine that???
complains are norm,appreciation is odd.malaysian.
doctors have to live with that.they have no choice.and they are ok with it.with people not appreciating what doctors have done to them.
make me realize something big...betul x?
xoxoshikhin

demam pulak

its been sumdays im not feeling well..
dugaan..
but!!
i came out with summore ideas about my future!!
cant wait to share the ideas with him.
everything starts with a dream..
n dreams do come true..
dare to dream!
xoxoshikhin

bahaya

to girls out there,tho u plan to go to some public places that u might think its safe for u to go alone,dont.
never.
jangan.
yesterday i went out with dzafri n u know all this while i loved to go out alone,now,not anymore.
i ran into my 3-years-older-than-me aunty when we were searching for dzafri's school shoes.
she told us that she went to the basement to park when she realised that sumone was following her.
she made a brilliant act when she decided to go up to the rooftop n park there.
seriously,i never thought of being followed in that way.
i mean,ur in the car kan?
i'll think twice to go out alone after this.fuh.
xoxoshikhin

decades ago..

its been decades ago since i witnessed my dad got angry..
you two,if things dont work out,just..erm..accept it.
dnt come near to not-so-healthy people and scream about your problems.
its a big NO-NO.
ingat tu.
thank god he's fine..
mcm2.
xoxoshikhin

dependant

its a nice feeling when people tell u that u r dependable.
but its not as nice when the weather is so0 hot outside,and u r lying around in that white comfy sofa,yming..
and all of the sudden u got a phone call telling u that u r needed.wanted.
u haf to jump up n change ur pants..
put ur hat on..
and..go food shopping.
is it that hard to remember that cookies belong to which rack?
welcoming shikah home..
xoxoshikhin