Thirty Eight

Took a day off on my recent birthday. After the first school run, I video-called my Dad since he was away. Thanked him for having me, for raising me, and for being there up until today, thank you Ba. Then it was the second school run before fetching Mama for some quality time. Breakfast was lontong and cokodok hitam at The Kopitiam, followed by a canvas painting class. Lunch was croissants, cinnamon rolls, and pesto pizza (though I wished my sister was there with us too). Sempat juga packed up some of Ilyas' outgrown clothes to pass down to our family's upcoming little one. School pickups with my better half and ended the day with a memorable dinner together with the kiddos (terima kasih Sayang). And it's a wrap! I spent my birthday doing the simple things I love, with the people I love. Cukuplah.

Menuju 40 ni, above all else, I pray for good health for everyone. Iyalahhh money is for sooo many things. But good health is the highest form of rizq, say no more. Syukur masih dikurniakan rezeki suami yang masih mampu keluar bekerja, rezeki mak ayah yang masih sihat ke sana ke sini, adik-beradik dan ipar-duai yang semuanya dalam keadaan baik, dan anak-anak yang membesar dengan sihat (minus the demam selsema tu, biasalahhh). Alhamdulillah.

Semoga ada rezeki lagi to have my birthdays alongside my loved ones, InshaAllah Amin.

Love, Kin

Ilyas Is One

Ilyas has turned one.
Alhamdulillah.
Semoga membesar beriman, beramal soleh, genius utk Islam dan masyarakat. Amin.
Mama love you.

Tak Putus-putus

Since the bday celebration at Hard Rock Penang, sampai hari ni, belum habis activitiesnya.
Habis bday, continue dgn year end concert Yunus in Kepala Batas Penang.
Yunus ada art field trip pula ke Balai Seni.
Nov bday celebration for Yunus.
Birthday Abg at home.
Ada night extra training class for red belt taekwondo exam.
Ada report card day for Fatimah.
Host a dinner for close family, a small and meaningful one, thank you for coming.
Ada report card day for Yusuf.
Ada taekwondo grading exam for all 3.
Ada report card for Yunus.
and mini piano recital.

goodness.
semoga semua kuat sihat, amin.

Farewell Syuhadah Hygiene Team

 

All the best to Syu!
12 tahun di Regional Office, thank you for everything!
May Allah ease, Amin.

Parents-Teacher Meeting 12 Feb 2026

 

#GambarLama

The admin of Kumon asked whether I can meet up with the Principal that 12 Feb 2026. I said yes. So basically all three are doing so so so good at the centre.
Yusuf = so so good. period.
Fatimah = so so good. has to improve on the handwriting.
Yunus = a very smart boy. and playful too.

mcm mna pun Mama happy.
always so proud.
thank you Allah.
May Yusuf, Fatimah, Yunus & Ilyas membesar bijak, soleh solehah, membesar sihat & active, kind hearted and respectful.
Amin.

It Would be Easier

It is easier to love
When you are loved.

It is easier to care
When you are cared for.

It is easier to empathize
When someone has empathized with you.

It is easier to give
When you have received.

It is easier to offer
When kindness has been offered to you.

It is easier to feel
When your feelings have been acknowledged.

It is easier to protect
When you have been protected.

It is easier to save
When you have been saved.

It is easier to smile
When you see smiles day in and day out.

It is easier to welcome
When you have been welcomed.

It is easier to listen
When you have been heard.

It is easier to hear
When someone truly listens to you.

It is easier to connect
When you feel connected.

It is easier to help
When you have been helped.

It is easier to support
When you have been supported.

It is easier to appreciate
When you are appreciated.

It is easier to respect
When you are respected.

It is easier to serve
When you have been served.

Yes, that would have been easier…
But that’s not the case, right?

Love,
Kin

Rough Sabtuday

Bags and kids were ready in the car. Taekwondo for Saturday morning.
Reversed the car and felt weird. Tayar pancit.

Took my time to think whats best with all 4 kids in the car and no one was home.
Drove all to the closest kedai tayar. Syukur sebab RM8 saja for the tampal service, due to paku. Tak perlu tukar tayar terus.

Allah duga hari Sabtu, so all can be settled, Ahad dah okay with sending and picking up kids. Allah uji RM8 saja. Allah uji sikit. Adalah tu yang buat tak kena, tak betul. Semoga Allah ampunkan dosa kita semua, amin..

Sangat Alert

Fatimah.
Seorang yg sgt alert with everything.
She has to know everything.
She has to know changes of things.
Back then in kindy she was like the buku kedatangan. And she knows who's off to the toilet.
She knows which bag is whose.
Kalau friends come in with new bag and she didnt recognise whose, she would ask.
She wants to know reasons.
She play investigators with the brother.
She checks the Whatsapp daily, to know reasons why the friends didnt come for school.
If there is a list, without her name in it, she will ask why.
Semoga your trait membantu diri, keluarga, dan masyarakat sekeliling to ambil tahu and act on it. InshaAllah.
My daughter.

Pulang Petang

 

Dah balik rumah baru terperasan teacher aiman's key terlekat with my keys. Maka keluar again to return the keys back to her. These 3 pun nak ikut jugakkkkk.Jom!

Coq Kodok

 

While waiting for Yunus habis main at teacher Aiman's house, teman Fatimah buat coq kodoq.
seronok dia and Abang tolong teacher peel the bananas and mashed them up. Had small evening talk with teacher Aiman in her kitchen. Be kind to all, everyone is battling with something. Be kind, to all, all the time. You never know.

Pagi Thought

this morn thought.

after sending her kids to school, a mom in her car looking at another woman driving a nicer car, "thats really really nice, it must be nice to have that".

saw another lady having her own good time jogged around the garden, "that must be nice to have such quiet, peaceful, effective time".

little that she know, they'd be saying "its nice to have kids and the chance to drive kids to school". someone out there ada yang tak dikurniakan zuriat pun utk be driven to school everyday. not about the car, not about the jog.

Allahuakbar.

Biasakan Yang Luar Biasa (Supaya Lebih Tenang)

Yang pernah/yang sedang:

1. Diabetic during pregnancy

2. Anemic (sampai cucuk bontot berhari2)
3. High blood pressure (daily attend clinic) - daily urine check
4. Blood traced in urine
5. Baby in NICU to replaced blood due to jaundice
6. Failed in breastfeeding

7. Muntah until 4th month

Allah bagi rasa. Ilmu rasa. Allah ajar untuk berserah, tak putus-putus doa.
Hanya yang kita mampu, nothing exceeds that.
Ada nikmat, ada dugaannya. Ada dugaan, ada nikmatnya. 

InshaAllah yg baik2 saja utk semua.

Yusuf and School and Friends

 

Broke Down in Tears

• reached home from tmn melawati on tuesday evening
• kids are unwell - fatimah still batuk selsema, yusuf demam batuk selsema
• woke up this morn to deal with muntah susu all over - fatimah hair..body
• yusuf muntah susu too and kept on crying and asking to carry him
• i was dead
• arrived office, hugged syuhada and broke down in tears
• talked to Mr Suresh about it
• went for sushi, alone.
• (and llao llao)

2019.
motherhood.

one of those days.
tapi tak pa.

love always, mama.

Kids and Health

they are prone to sickness.
under 2yo, RSV lovessss them. syukur bukan influenze as now is the musim. 70% - 80% warded in semua due to influenza. semoga sihat cpt semuanya Amin.

started w a short demam days, he started to have sounds from his lungs (with stethoscope).

admitted into the hospital for 6 days.
manja la budak tu 6 days ddk dgn mama dia.
ignoring how scared the mom was sbb kena sleep hospital. im sooo not a hospital person. takut hantu.
syukur alhamdulillah sihat dah.

once balik nursery now manja sgt2 tak mau be put down once home.
this shall pass. tak tahan sedih the cries everytime neb, nose suction, everytime cucuk ubat masuk via branula pun cry sakit sgt2, branula tangan dah bounce bengkak, cucuk pula kaki and so on.

didoakan semua anak2 sihat kuat selalu amin.
bukan senang mak ayah pun bertukar2 shif just to have the life ongoing.
other 3 kids perlu ke sekolah, kafa so the send offs and pickups all should go on like normal.

alhamdulillah. settle. dgn bantuan dan rahmat Allah.

My Malay Newborn Baby

 

Baby's thing:

Baby mandi air suam
Pakai minyak telon di perut, belakang badan, legs and tapak kaki
Pakai barut
Booties and mittens
Swaddle
Cuci tali pusat everyday sampai luruh
Minum susu every 2-3hours, WAJIB
Sleep tanpa bantal, their neck still very soft
Sleep on bed yang tak tenggelam, important for their spine to stay straight
Only sleep face up selama yang boleh to prevent SIDS, they cannot turn/roll back yet kalau muka ter'face' on tilam

Berpantang Cara Mama and Kak Mas

 

       

Pantang 44 hari

1. no telur
2. no kicap/toyu
3. no kunyit dlm masakan pada awalnya sbb baby kuning, after baby dah okay stable, pelan2 can guna kunyit in masakan
4. ikan isi putih saja (siakap, bawal putih, selar etc.)
5. pantang suami isteri 100 days
6. berurut
7. bertungku
8. bertangas
9. modern2 ni ada sauna pulak kan
10. pakai barut/bengkung and berparam
11. pakai sweater
12. put on socks
13. ikat rambut tocang tinggi
14. in kain batik all the time
15. ada yg berpilis di dahi
16. air mandi always air daun-daunan yang direbus, mandi semasa air masih suam
17. alongside ubat2 Doctor
18. bfast roti & milo/horlicks etc
19. lunch nasi and lauk - selalunya sup ikan or ikan bakar or ikan masak asam (nasi always panas/suam) with sayur sup (sawi or brocolli)
20. lots of air masak/air kosong suam
21. dinner pun nasi and lauk (sama mcm lunch, ada yg pesan if possible jgn ulang lauk tghari)
22. teatime and supper - get biskut kering cicah milo or horlicks
23. sleep A LOT (as much as one can get, sbb in pantang baby banyak sleep only especially during the day)
24. no lifting anything except for the baby
25. jaga ibu jari kaki, kalau tersepak anything might prone to bleeding again sbb rahim belum kuat/recover sepenuhnya
26. no ikan haruan at all. good for scar but dia akan mencakup luka dalam dengan sgt2 cepat takut cakupan tu tak okay
27. no book reading/phone reading/tv watching sbb urat mata 
28. kalau caeser lepas mandi pls dry scar ceaser sebaik mungkin, jgn biarkan busuk, berair, bernanah or berdarah again
29. no laksa for 1 year
30. no bihun, mee, spaghetti, koayteow sudden2 sgt selepas habis pantang, take it slow
31. no seafood party cpt2 sgt after habis pantang, semuanya perlu mula balik slow and steady
32. tak boleh kena air hujan LANGSUNG, even after dah habis pantang, kena jaga2 lagi

33. hari2 sapu minyak nona roguy peha, betis, tapak kaki

the above mmg ada mitos2nya, but to respect the elderlies' tradition tak salah, asalkan makan and have a healthy pantang period. kalau doctor akan kata semua boleh makan as long as tak allergic. to me, ambik tradisi org tua, yg tak bercanggah agama, yg baik utk kesihatan, utk dpt rehat yg cukup so u recover well. 

thats all!
done and dusted. :)

Pengalaman All The Cucuks Thingy

Well, talk about cucuk and blood withdrawals and stuff.

Seriously not my thing.
But kita berdamai dengan takdir for my kids.

Everytime pregnant I would register myself for checkups both at KK government and private hospital. So this is my list of things that I had to go through, tak suka, tak nak, tau mau, sakit, BUT, demi anak.
I went through it all. Moms.

> daily visit to KK
> daily BPs
> daily urine
> daily weight check

Cucuk thingy:
> countless blood withdrawal for HB/ FBC - full blood count
> PE profile x 2 (KK and private hospital)
> Claxene x 14 (post caesar to avoid blood clotting, di perut and di peha)
> Dexa x 5 (buttocks, 1130pm pun drove from home to hospital for the injection, and 1 at government hospital sebelum operation)
> Mags (ubat yg sgt panas, directly cucuk into me directly and indirectly i.e. via branula - peluh sampai misi tolong ambilkan tissue tolong lap dahi and muka, the heat could be felt terus)
> Tetanus x 1
> Cosmofer x 8 (buttocks - tak kurang sakitnya compared to Dexa, and dangg what it did to my buttocks)
> Branula x 3 (both tangan kanan kiri kena)
> Spinal AND epidural - risk of longer operation

So..simpan di sini sebagai kenangan.
Pahit. tp lalui dulu yg pahit utk dpt Muhammad Ilyas yang sgt manis tu.
Semoga membesar baik, soleh, bijak, handsome, kaya rezeki, amin.

Agreed to Whatever. As Long as All is A-okay.

 

kuatnya seorang ibu.

come whatever may.

i love you kids.

Baby and Your Worries

Ada baby ni, your worry is infinity. since dlm perut, until forever.
The carousel never stops. When the baby in the tummy, u worry about

• baby's growth in tummy (overall)
• terlilit tali pusat
• sudden still death
• placenta lekang etc

(seriously, worry abt the mother should be at par dgn perasaan worry for the baby, but being moms, u just want to know your baby is fine)

once baby is born:

• mata bertaik
  
• tersumbat hidung
• hingus non stop
• jaundice
• unexplained skin rashes
• liking one side only i.e. sleeping one side, terkepek telinga
• tersedak susu
• demam
• selsema
• tak poop for few days
• cirbir

Macam tu lah.

semoga semua anak2 membesar sihat amin.